[marq=right]Why I'm taking a break[/marq]

I've always been a believer in letting everyone know the complete truth. While some may consider this "showing everyone my dirty laundry", I think it's imparative to let everyone know exactly what I'm thinking.

I've felt melancholy lateley regarding developing things for WoW because of a few reasons.

when the server went down from the hacks, my guild copied the latest guildsite to a new server one of the officers set up, taking me out of that loop. Now I can't test things with a real breathing guild.

Another reason is because I don't want to play WoW anymore, and here is why:

In a beligerant drunk (I'm bipolar when I'm drunk) binge, I (in order of what happened)

1. Made a fool of myself
2. Annoyed my guild
3. Was ridiculed for acting the way I did
4. Was muted from ventrilo (server I'm administering)
5. Came back into vent and said things like "you are mean" etc. to fellow guildies whom I respect and have fun with normally.
5. QUIT my guild (been playing with my buddy GM since 2001)
6. Wept afterwards
7. Tried to post an apology on guild forums and found my account was already banned (due to automation of guildsite)

This is my alcohol problem to blame obviously.


The main reason I don't want to develop anything for wow anymore (or at least a good while) is because the passion I had for UU/UA/GuildSite has fizzled out completley with this latest episode, and any work I do now would be shallow. This happened to me before several times. I think it may even be a huge biorythm. The reason this happened this time I don't know yet, or do and dont realize it yet. Once I figure out why I've lost my drive, and make myself better, I will come back and help everyone with the drive I had once again.

My thanks goes out to the warm wowroster community, and I expect only good things for it. Wowroster has earned a permanent spot in my dev "heart".

For old time sake I would like to say: :puke2:
to the devs:

i am sorry to hear about your guild disowning you like that. well hey good luck in your recovery and I hope it is a quick one. divineretribution.net could always use another hand/hear/eye or two in the development so you have room to play if you want. I am the only Dev for the guild and it gets a bit lonely

take care

Sorry to see you go like that. Good luck to you.

GL Matt, and we'll be here for you in the chat room, eagerly awaiting your return.

*sniffle*

I really hope things get better for you

Like Zeryl said, we''ll be eagerly awaiting your return

Dang, someone with a Vash avatar is a cool guy in my books! Hopefully your guild can understand and you come back full force!

You're a funny guy in IRC and Im sure the wowRoster community will miss your presense. GL Matt!

If it is any consultation Matt I feel the same way with wow anymore as I am a guild leader but very guildless if you know what I mean. I say you and I Matt Start our own guild some where to further test abd build with wowroster.net as I know where my passion is now.

Oh no ! Who will I bother with my tedious concerns about my site now ?

Being serious : a break from any passion is physiological, and some odd issue could emphasize this need.
I hope you find again a balance.

Find the best from this experience Matt.

Let me say you : part of your passion helped a lot of people to find something good. Now we can help you, continuing the project with our ideas, feedbacks and sometimes regrets.

Damn. You are in this project from the start, I can't imagine it without you.

Byez

Take care of yourself Matt

Matt...

Take care of yourself bud. Chin up... dont question your decisions, Do what you gotta do


Above all else know that we are here for ya if you need us!

Best of luck

Games

Thanks all, I'll drop by now and then and say hi. I may reignite the inferno i had again, but right now I have to nurse the spark i have left. What you all said to me means a lot to me.

I'm sorry to hear about the drama. Nothing kills motivation like bad blood.

Recharge, revitalize, see the sun. It's neat outside.

G.

Matt I didnt know you much. but you will be missed you are the one that helped me Figure the Roster out we where up late one night several months back on MSN if it was not for you helping me through my NOOb stage at this i would not be using the Awesome Site.

I wish you all the luck in the days to come and if you ever want to come to Brozebeard Server (Worst Lagged server I have seen) Look me Up Korvin is my main toon. I will be glad to have you around Maybe we can Hack the server and Fix the Lagg *Hint Hint* LOL

Seriously Good luck and if you ever need a friend to talk to send me a msg my Email is in my Profile. I know what your going throuh I have been there.

Hey Matt,

I too know of the problems that you are going through, I too have been there on more than one occasion, and as u say it's usally something u are not aware of just yet.
I wish u every sucess in figuring it all out. I really lookforward to u being back here so we can all pester u about this truly Great product.

Take Care & see u soon!

Best of luck to you Matt.

Take care!